i am back

i haven't got time to write anything here, even when i was super-tired.

we had a great bbq party yesterday. it was great to see all those lovely faces in our new house!
we managed to open that wine cellar yesterday! wow, it is brilliant! i love it!

now i am back to study, even i have a headache right now. i have to. i cannot wait to finish that exam!

we will have our cat this Friday! i am so excited!:)

i sort of got a promotion at work. but i am not really happy. maybe i have become a very greedy person. well, i hope not. i think i am very nice. hahaha.

ciao.

talk to myself

I find myself updating this blog whenever I feel tired! Isn't it strange?!
Maybe because I want to tell myself to be happy, so that I don't normally write unhappy things in my Chinese blog.
Another reason is that all the unhappy things in my life are pretty much related to work, and I don't want to think about work at home.

Nobody is really happy at work.
The company made big profit. However who benefits from the increase in sales? - Definitely not us employees.
But I just want to hang on a bit longer to see what happens next. I know I will feel guilty if I leave now. Although I am not really happy staying here either.

The good thing is: the Strategic Management Accounting is quite interesting. It is somehow related to some subjects I had done in my MBA studies. And some old memories come back too. Not a bad thing.

I am still writing the story. I enjoy writing it very much, esp. it seems that some blog friends really enjoyed it. That makes me feel satisfied. Some feel sad after they read the story, because that made them remember their own sad bits of life.
The good thing is: Life always treats you well after you suffered a lot and learned a lot. At lease it is the case with me.
I would call myself lucky too. Thanks for looking after me. :)

i need some sunshine.

i am very very tired.
we moved in our lovely new house. it is still a big mess everywhere...
a feeling of a home owner? - Yes, and...

and there is soooooo much to do at work! so much... you could never finish.
but i know, somehow, everything will be sorted out.

everything will be fine eventually.
this is life.
it is a tree, always grows.
it is a sunflower, always cries for sunshine.

flat out

This week has been so stressful.
I am not very happy with some people's certain behavior at work. But there is not much I can do.

We looked at a few places on Saturday. There was a townhouse I liked a lot.
I have not finished studying the CPA stuff as I had planned for myself. I am so tired. I actually felt like I was going to throw up last night, and I stopped reading. I continued writing the story on my Chinese blog instead.

Again I have not done any studies today. I feel so stressed.

I will have to get up at six tomorrow morning so that I can go to work early and finish the bloody payroll, since Wednesday is public holiday. I do not understand why some people are so bad with their personal finance matters. They act as if they wait for one more day, they will run out of money and die.

I need to try to be happy again.
I am so stressed.
There is too much to do.
I believe next month when I am done with the stupid exam, things will be a lot better.

Easter Sunday

I had a really great day today. We went to mum and dad's house. My sister in law and her partner were also there.

We had beautiful lunch and dessert. The roast lam was so juicy and tasty! We talked all afternoon, shared photos of mum and dad's Tasmania trip and our China, Singapore and Malaysia trip, over a couple of drinks, laughing...I was so happy. I finally know what a happy complete family is like.

I feel truly blessed to have such wonderful parents in law and sister in law. Thank God for letting me have the sweet family happiness, which I always longed for.

thank God it is weekend!

This week has been very stressful!

Ti's mum passed away. Ti has been away for one and half weeks. I had to do all her work. I had to run the office by myself, when Vit went for medical appointments and the funeral this afternoon.

I felt very sad, when I heard Ti crying on the phone. I started crying when I heard the news that her mum's brain was dead and the hospital had turned the machine off, leaving her body breathing by herself. I knew, at that time that she's gone.
But when you think about the good side: she has had a good life, with eight children and twenty-two grandchildren. She had a nice daughter, who has lived with her for 46 years.

I have not managed to achieve my work target yet because of all these unpredictable changes. But I have done a fair bit work; I should be happy with myself.

This weekend is going to be busy too. We have a birthday party to go to tomorrow...
I hope I can find enough time for CPA study, and also for relaxing.

At least I try to enjoy life as much as possible.

I am back from holiday!

We are back from holiday on the 26th. I started working today. It was not too bad. Although there is a lot of work to catch up with, I somehow managed to take it easy. I felt quite relaxed, perhaps still in the holiday mode, have not switched back to my normal working mode yet. They did not help me to do any of my work when I was away (except those statutory requirements that were due before I came back）. My boss always believed that I can do it. So I can.

It is still pretty much a mess at home. I did some cleaning, but there is still a lot to be done. Cos helped me with some laundry yesterday. It was good. He is very helpful.

Soon I will have to start my 2nd subject of the CPA programme. I am not in the study mood yet. But time went fast. I have to catch up somehow. I'd better start studying this weekend. I don't want to put myself in any trouble or too much stress due to lack of time later.

Now I got Cos' bad habit. I think about work even at home. There is just too much to do. And you can never finish everything.

Stress!!

God bless.

I am going home

I am going home next week, with Cos. I am very excited. I feel restless. Soon I will see those old beautiful faces. Yummy food. I could almost smell them now. I dunno why, sometimes I feel it is easier to be myself in English, although it is my second or used to be the third language. Maybe it is just because my English is not good enough for me to hide anything from myself yet. I don't need to hide anything from others, simply because I cannot be bothered; and also I have nothing to hide. Sometimes I cannot believe how blunt and straight I have become. Sometimes I try to be a little bit more political, but it is not really my way of living. It is too tiring. Maybe that is why I love Australia so much. I don't enjoy the life in China where people have to wear a mask all the time, sometimes even when they are with their friends. I am not saying Chinese people are fake. I just think that China is a place where it is hard for people to be themselves. I have read lots of stuff from Chinese people's blogs. Many times they are worried about stuff which will be considered as non-sense here in Melbourne. They have to put up with so much shit in their daily life. I feel truly blessed that I have found Australia as my new home, a home that I have chosen for myself. I feel so sad when I think of the nice people in China, who cannot live their life as they wish, who have to put on a mask and do things they do not really want to do but have to. A simple example is social drinking. Drinking for me is a very enjoyble experience. Talking with friends while drinking is a wonderful thing to do after work or on weekends. But in China, many people have to drink for business sake. People in every country drink for business sake, you may say. The thing is in China people have to keep drinking to give other people "faces" even they are just about to throw up. And this does not only happen in business meetings, but also in friends' parties. I feel sad, when I see stories like this. Drinking itself is to get the true you out of you, to feel the best you could feel, to throw up the worst you have been hiding from everybody including yourself. I drink because I enjoy it, not because somebody wants me to. I guess it is really wonderful if you could be yourself and do what your heart desires and go wherever you wanna go. So next week I am going home, where I came from, where I was brought up; with Cos, to see that place again; to see what has changed since last time I left?